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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:08:09 GMT -5
The revised version where Shika dies! And love is refound! 
NOW TO BEGIN... or re-begin, for that matter...Shika was a mess. He hated himself. He hated Akemi for leaving him. And most importantly, he hated his life. For the first time, he understood Akemi's longing for suicide. His wife didn't remember him, his son had been abducted and sent to a foreign country, and his daughter... Shika stood up abruptly and hurried to Kita's room. She was the only thing he had left to live for. But when he arrived... "NO." Shika sank to his knees, shaking uncontrollably. He clutched at himself for support as the tears started to flow. "NO." Kita's crib was empty.
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:11:43 GMT -5
Rain fell down like the tears on Shika's cheeks, pulling down the window and going faster as they collected more raindrops. The air was stale, and every time Shika breathed in, he could smell both Akemi and his baby. The whole house was silent except for his sobs, which rang off of the walls and returned to his ears. His whole world was falling down, imploding upon his peace and sanctity. Yesterday was no more. The future that could have been was gone, never to return as a possibility. His life had been ruined, the maybe's had been killed, the should be's had been murdered. Everything had died.
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:19:19 GMT -5
Everything had died.
Except himself.
"N-no..."
He stumbled blindly into his bedroom. His mind was oddly blank. He didn't know what he was heading for until he pulled it out of a bedside drawer.
A kunai.
Death.
That had been Akemi's drawer.
"She kept... knives?"
Suddenly the kunai slid from his sweaty palms and slid to the floor. He couldn't do this. He couldn't.
"I am... a coward."
He knew as soon as he spoke that it was true.
"I'm lazy... and I'm a coward."
"I deserve to die."
But something kept him from doing it.
"I don't deserve the honor of killing someone so useless. I can't do it because I'm not worthy," he told himself.
But really, there was a very different reason indeed...
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:20:35 GMT -5
"Why don't you just do it? You know that's not the reason. You're lying to yourself," a voice in his head said in a m,eatter of fact voice.
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:27:14 GMT -5
"I know," Shika told himself. "But... if Akemi... if she remembers... and Kita-chan." He shook his head. "I can't leave Kita-chan. Wanting to die is no excuse for being a terrible father." He looked pleadingly to the heavens. "Why am I even hearing voices, anyway? Who ARE you? Never mind." He shook his head once more. "I don't care anymore."
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:29:40 GMT -5
"I'm your conscience," the voice piped. "And you don't know where Kita is or anything. Maybe she's dead. Then what?"
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:36:18 GMT -5
"Then..."
"...A-Ake-chan..."
"I don't know."
And that was the truth.
Once more Shika reached for the kunai, lying on the floor, as if calling out to him.
But once more, something held him back. "I... I have to find Ki-chan... a-and I have to find Akemi... I love her..."
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:41:42 GMT -5
His concience scoffed. "She couldn't have gotten far....she's a baby. On the other hand, Akemi is a different case. She doesn't even know you're married....remember?"
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:45:57 GMT -5
"I remember," Shika told his concience bitterly. He stood up, swaying slightly on his feet. "I'm gonna go take a shower. And put on some clean clothes. And then... maybe I'll try and find Kita. And... and Ke-chan. Okay?"
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:47:19 GMT -5
"Sure," his conscience said. "Staller," he added.
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:49:42 GMT -5
"I'm just trying to make myself presentable!" Shika said, unnecessarily loud. And then quieter: "P-please..." He let out a heavy sigh, his shoulders drooping. "And maybe I'll get some rest. I didn't sleep at ALL last night; I'm exhausted. And Akemi's not going anywhere... right?"
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:50:17 GMT -5
"Wouldn't bet on it," his conscience sang. "You know her...."
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:51:40 GMT -5
He growled ((ANIMORPHS AGAIN LAWL)). "Oh, what do you know?!" And with that, he toppled over onto the bed, where he promptly fell fast asleep.
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Post by IGGY on May 30, 2008 16:52:22 GMT -5
"I'm you, you know," the annoyed voice of his conscience said, distaste lacing his sour tone.
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Post by bodie the almighty and awesome on May 30, 2008 16:55:57 GMT -5
But Shikamaru Nara was already asleep, the ones he loved most weaving in and out of his dreams.
~*~
MEANWHILE IN AMERICA...
Bakiri looked at Princeton in distaste. "And the people here actually WEAR this stuff?" The first seven years of his life, Bakiri had been used to wearing nothing but loincloths, or maybe a lightweight robe on special occasions. In Akemi's household, he sported comfortably-fitting ninja attire, but he had NOTHING on these new school uniforms. They were AWFUL, like nothing he'd ever seen before.
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